Last night I had the most intense dream. I woke up shaken. I am shaken still. I was walking with Juergen and Sarah towards a very busy street. He was caught up talking about future plans. We get to the road and Sarah goes in one direction, and Juergen pulls me in another direction. He drags me on a bus that is going away from Sarah. I start screaming because we are leaving her. In fact the words "stop...we are leaving her" still sound in my ears. It makes me wonder if we are suppose to adopt again. Is Juergen trying to drag me in one direction, while we leave our daughter behind? We would never leave Sarah behind...but maybe there is another girl?